The Magician's Private Library

"Everytime I go to sleep
I kick and scream and dream a little bit.
Violently I wakin' to
what's real and what's really bullshit."
- 'Everytime I Go to Sleep Holly Miranda

www.themagiciansprivatelibrary.blogspot.com

Rebel, Rebel

Echo. Linda. Linda. Echo. November.

Who: Ellen

What: This is how you spell my name using police code

Where: UCI Claire Trevors School of Art - Studio Art Building

When: 31 May 2009 Sunday

Lesson: Don't ever climb onto the rooftop of a school building unless you want to have a run in with the cops

On other news...

Fiume Night 10 _ Holly Miranda _ williamsburgh, april 2009 from vincent moon / temporary areas on Vimeo.

If all my other posts about her still hasn't convinced you to check her out, this video, hands down, has to make you break. She is probably the only up and coming artists that I whole-heartedly support. I've blogged countless times about her. Seriously. Check her out, you won't be disappointed. Take my word for it.

http://www.hollymiranda.com/
www.myspace.com/hollymiranda

LN LU

So fucking good...

Minature Tigers - Dino Damage

This Is My Sound

In six-words: Finally making my dreams come true.

I had my first internship at KUCI today, and DJ Zhubin was gracious enough to let me have a whole hour to play whatever music I wished to play. For one whole hour it was The Ellen Show (and not the Ellen Degeneres show). STOKED. My out-of-control nerves nearly made me shit in my pants, but thank God my well-maintained digestive system was able to keep it all in. Sweaty hands, slurred words, jitters, and an extensive heat wave -- that pretty much sums up my entire show. A bit nasty, but the nastiness made it memorable. I have one more internship before the test, so if any of you guys are Orange County locals, feel free to tune in on Saturday at 2AM for the "Disturbing the Peace" show, because I'll be on cranking out some hip electronica songs, yeah!

Here's my tracklist from today:
Intern Ellen's Power Hour

Holly Miranda - Slow Burn Treason
Mellowdrone - Bone Marrow - Box
Beirut - My Night with the Prostitute from Marseille - Holland EP

Four Tet - She Moves She - Rounds
Yeasayer - Tightrope - Dark Was the Night
School of Seven Bells - Half Asleep -Alpinisms

Dodos - The Season - Visiter
Matt and Kim - Lesson Learned - Daylight
Royksopp - Miss it so Much - Junior

Fever Ray - When I Grow Up - Fever Ray

And to send us out, here is a video from Matt & Kim for their single 'Lesson Learned.'


I'm going to do this one day in New York, anyone care to join?

LN LU

Current obsession: six-word memoirs

Non-renewable. Please do not waste me.
- Ellen Lu

...I've given you the wrong impression...

fuzzy blue lights

Nothing is
impossible.

The word

itself says

I'm possible.

- Audrey Hepburn

Unrequited. Can't force it, I'm sorry.

Saw the world; now where's home?

"Not quite what I was planning..." - Summer Grimes

"Born bald. Grew hair. Bald Again." - A.J. Jacobs

"I like girls. Girls like boys." - Andrea Dela Cruz

"Lived like no tomorrow; tomorrow came." - C.C. Keiser

"Laughing until I pee my pants." - Carolyn Waller

Since this is a relatively new blog for me, I have never written about a movement or phenomenon that I feel really connected to. These quotes above are taken from a book called Six-Word Memoirs, which was edited by SMITH magazine who also happened to start this very movement based on Ernest Hemingway's famous, but often overlooked six word story -- For sale: baby shoes, never worn. I think this movement says a lot about how powerful and impactful words can be. With six simple, but carefully chosen words, people can define their lives within the very moment. There are currently three books published and I definately recommend them so go and check them out, or even buy them if this idea intrigues you. Here is a link to the website: www.sixwordmemoirs.com. Check it out and discover the power of words.

LN LU

Patrick Watson

#97 Patrick Watson / Part 4 - A Take Away Show from La Blogotheque on Vimeo.

Why do things like this only happen in Paris?

Earth, Water

Thanks to three selfless friends who were strong enough to brave a field of prickly yellow grass and the cold morning ocean, I was able to capture these amazing shots:

LN LU

Joints

Lesson learned: Do not frollick around in the grass if you're allergic to it.

I, I, I, You!

What a fucking weekend...

Felt a little like this:

Mixed with this:

LN LU

"You've got wits, you've got looks, you've got passion
But are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?"

sometime love knocks you down

I feel slightly sprung...

Ellen Lu

needs to go to caffine rehab.

Is it bad that I'm starting to think in Facebook status form?

LN LU

BB

Just let me have him and you guys can have the rest.

Let Your Love Grow Tall

My message is simple:

For places that accept my music, I'll play it loud.
For places that challenge my music, I'll play it louder.

Mother Lover

Indulge before it gets taken off of Youtube!
Happy belated Mother's Day!

LN LU

Mommy, I love you.

I think people tend to overlook or under-appreciate what they've always had, and I think the biggest aspect of anyone's life that gets the least recognition is the nurture, care and love given to them by their mums. Today I came home for the first time in a couple of weeks, and had a thorough, insightful and shocking conversation with my mom. I, for one, has never and will never overlook what my mother has done for me. She has listened to me, helped me, provided for me, cared for me, sacrificed for me, motivated me, inspired me, challenged me, and most of all, loved me. I love her more than anyone else in the world - she is my best friend and confidant. But how I feel and how I appreciate her cannot be said for my brother. In a moment of desperation, my mother confided to me the burdens and heartaches she bottles within herself - secrets and feelings she fears to tell anyone else in fear of ruining the relationships within the family. My brother has never appreciated the sacrifices my parents made for him, in fact, he practically scorns my parents for pushing him while he was young, blaming them for anything and everything that has gone wrong in his life. At the age of 23, he has yet to figure out his life. I don't think he gets it. He doesn't understand that he's too old to depend on my parents for a paycheck, he's too old to be playing games in his room all the time, he's too old to be wasting his life away, and he's definately too fucking old to be disrespecting my mom the way he does. He never comes home, he never calls, he never says 'thank you,' and he never tells my mom he loves her. The only time he calls or comes home is when he needs to pick up his paycheck, or when he needs to eat. Then, without any words of recognition or thanks, he leaves. Seriously? He's practically using my mother as a mat, and walking all over her. He's taking advantage of her and he doesn't even care. But I fucking care. And my mom? She's too afraid to ruin all ties with my brother, so she chooses to interalize everything. But fuck that! Being a mother doesn't mean you deserve to get used, abused and taken advantage of. It doesn't mean you have to be a rug for your kids to wipe their feet on. I told her that she needs to go ballistic on my brother and just tell him everything she feels. Fuck relations, what kind of a relationship do they have if he walks all over her and never thinks twice? That's a relationship based on a lie. Their relationship isn't real if he continues to think that what he is doing is alright. My brother seriously needs to open his fucking eyes and see the consequences to his actions, or I'll fucking do it for him.

I think it's because I talk to my mother so much that I know what she has done and what she has sacrificed for us, for the sake of our happiness. And it breakings my fucking heart to see her fall into this state of depression, and have to mask it in order for our family to have this pseudo-esque feeling of happiness. It's not fair for one person to carry the burden of everyone else's problems on their shoulders. She told me today that she was sorry for 'throwing all this trash' on me, and that I didn't deserve to hear all the sadness in her life, because I deserve to be happy. It killed me when she said that. She shouldn't have to carry the 'trash' on her own. I volunteer to listen to her problems and help to carry the trash, because I love her. It is the burden of the trash on my shoulders that reminds me that I have a real relationship with my mother - a relationship built on trust, support and love.

I know this is a long blog, but Mother's day is tomorrow, and I really want you to think about what I've written. Too many people use their mom as their walking mat. Don't. This is the woman who carried you around in her belly for 9 months, the woman who raised you, the woman who sacrificed so much for you, and the woman who will love you no matter what. Don't overlook her, don't under-appreciate her, and don't ever disrespect her.

I love her so much.

LN LU

I'm not too comfortable
Too far from the start
Well I don't find success
Interesting as art
But I'll build a home
In these broken songs
Like you said I should
Like you understood
- Jim Ward


Everthing I want to say.

do you know you're loved?

The Ones We Love is a project highlighting young and talented photographers from around the world. Each artist contributed six photographs of the person(s) who is most important to them, taken outdoors in a natural setting. The goal of the website is to portray the people who are loved, cherished, and inspirational to these artists, and also showcase the differences and similarities in the photographs each of them took within the same guidelines.

http://www.theoneswelove.org/photographers.html

So I literally stumbled upon this photography site. I absolutely love what it is aiming to do. I took the liberty and the pleasure of looking through each photographer's page. I read their handwritten explainations of who they chose and why. Truly inspiring. My questions to you are: Who would you photograph? And who would photograph you in return?

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Off topic, but here are a couple of photos that caught my attention.

I want to feel that, but I don't really know what that is...

LN LU

Hungry? Grab a Snicker!

It is currently 2:08 AM and I am starvinggggg!

someone who wants to be loved by you

"When I grow up

I want to be a forester
run through the moss on high heels

that's what I'll do

throwing out boomerangs

waiting for it to come back to me.

When I grow up

I want to live near the sea

crab claws and bottles of rum

that's what I'll have

staring at the seashell

waiting for it to embrace me."

Röyksopp

I am so in love with this band! They've been around for 10+ years, and the evolution of their music has worked to their advantage. The first song posted above is similar to N.A.S.A's 'Gifted,' except this song is specifically focused on Lykke Li. Röyksopp's first of two CDs has dropped; Junior which released late March is pumped FULL of eargasmic electronica pop songs featuring the likes of Lykke Li, Karin Dreijer Andersson of The Knife, and Anneli Drecker. The second album to their duo-set is Senior, which is expected to drop later in the year. The second video is an oldie of theirs from their first album Melody A.M.. Enjoy!

!!!ALSO!!! Got another cartilage piercing! I wanted to get an industrial bar going through two piercings, but the dude told me it wasn't a good idea since my ears are too flat and small. BOO.


LN LU

Maybe I'm Dreaming

http://www.myspace.com/owlcity

recommended.

Slow Burn Treason

"I'll bite your tongue,
if you bite mine."